Personal thoughts

i'm amaze by the people who are able to move on so quickly! i'm amaze by the people who are able to jump from one person to another in such a short period of time! i don't mean it in a bad way at all, i think its good that you don't put yourself through so much pain by reminiscing old memories. i, on the other hand take months or even years to get over someone and even after i think i am over that person there are still nights where i sit alone in my room and think about them. What did i do so wrong that they just left me without giving me a solid explanation, without getting any closure. those nights i'll flood my mind with questions like am i not good enough? will i ever be good enough? will i ever find someone that adores me and treat me well and shower me with love like how i will shower them ? do i not deserve happiness ? am i bad person ?
nevertheless, i wonder how do people move on so quickly? teach me how to find peace and give other people a chance. people i fall for are all so temporary it scares me. i keep telling myself do not give up, you will find happiness one day and someone is going to love me so much i'll start to wonder is this even real life i'm living or is it just a sweet dream that i never want to wake up from. in the mean time just hang in there, i complete myself and that has to be enough for now.