Deeper conversation

Its so sad that i feel like i don't have anybody that i can talk to. To tell them how i actually feel, upset,happy,grumpy,shitty,sad or mad.
they seem happy and i don't tell anyone because who wants to listen to someone sobbing or nagging about their downfall life, it might just make them feel sad or they probably don't even care because it's not really their problem after all.

If only there's someone that can make me open up again and have a deeper conversation with me like i used to have with that particular person. that would be really great